Saturday, May 03, 2008

Ay, There's the Rub

I'm being sad today. I showed TM a moment of weakness last night...don't worry, it was only over text message telling him I missed him. He responded by ignoring me...surprise, surprise. I guess I can't ever show TM my vulnerability again.

The thing is...everyone is telling me that I am so great and that I now have made room for the person strong enough to truly support me to come into my life. But I have proven that I am horrible at locating that person. True, TM was worlds better than Ex, but they were the same in that they were incapable of truly being there for me. What if I just don't know what that looks like, that I'm so blind to the right man that I'm doomed to never meet him?

As good as I am at lots of things, I'm clearly bad at picking partners. This scares me.

1 comment:

Kelly said...

I can totally understand why you're scared. I think we're always the hardest on ourselves when the breakup is fresh.

While TM and the ex may both have issues with emotional dependability, give yourself some credit. As you said, TM was better than the ex so that's progress. Even more importantly, you recognized much sooner what TM had to give just wasn't enough for you. This is HUGE, L. Britt.

I trust that you are heading just where you need to be. Hang in there! :)