Compulsive

I had a great weekend.

I had a horrible weekend.

Engaged in some really unhealthy, compulsive behavior...not once, but three nights in a row.
Reverted to the way I used to be in college. A way I thought I outgrew...age-wise and emotionally.

Ex really f*cked me up...in ways that no one understands...not even me.

Feel stupid explaining it to people, I feel scared showing it to people.

I'm going to spend the next six weeks trying to come to some sort of peace.

I'm so scared I'm going to fail. So I acted out all weekend...compulsively.