Friday, June 16, 2006

Hope is Exhausting

Did you know that I don't discuss my love life - or lack thereof - with my friends anymore? One of them told me once that she doesn't know how to react when I tell her about men I'm interested in; she doesn't know how excited she should get. I can't blame her really...with my track record, I wouldn't trust my taste in men either.

I've decided not to talk about "potential" men until I know something is really happening...whatever that means. I feel sad that I can't is after all one of the best things about being a woman...but I don't trust myself any more than my friends do. Whenever I open my big mouth, nothing comes of it.

I mentioned in a previous post that I felt like I was losing hope in finding someone special. What I didn't know was that it would take so long for hope to die...I wish it would hurry up already. It's tiring to be cynical and interested at the same time.

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