Has this ever happened to you?
Something somewhat upsetting happens to you...nothing major...but upsetting nonetheless. You don't feel it right away. So you tell everyone around you that you are fine...you even believe it yourself.
But then something else happens...something not at all upsetting, but related...and you realize that you are indeed quite upset.
The worst part is that you realize that you've been living in denial in order to not be upset...and that you can't stay that way. Even if you have to make hard decisions.
That's what happened to me this morning.