Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Avoidance

So my therapist recommended this book for me to read about narcissism. I've also been checking out a bunch of websites created by narcissists and those that have been hurt by them. But I don't read the book or the sites regularly. In fact, I barely read them at all. I am deathly afraid of reading that book. I've only gotten through the first 15 pages and I've owned it for several weeks.

I wish I understood this fear I have of learning about myself and improving myself. Understanding how I have been scarred is the first step of letting those scars heal. I can certainly talk that talk; but when it comes down to actually taking that step, I get so afraid.

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