"You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection."
Friday, November 11, 2005
My Heart Hurts
I don't know what's happening to me right now, but I feel a real constriction in my chest and I'm crying. For the life of me, I don't know why. It's moments like these that I feel like I'm going crazy...and these moments are happening more and more often. I know people with mental illness and others who have been deeply affected by it, so I don't use that term loosely. I really feel like I am not in control of myself at this moment. My chest feels like there is a 1,000 pound weight on it, my mind is all muddy and I feel sick to my stomach. And it just came over me.