My week of family and turkey is wrapping up. I was looking forward to a few days of getting away from myself and my issues. Alas, I actually couldn't turn myself off. My day and a half with my mom, stepdad and sisters brought up a lot of issues. Luckily I was able to figure out why...at least a little bit.
The next three days with my dad and company showed me what I've been missing. It was a normal Thanksgiving: the traditional touch football game, a dinner table filled with people, lots of laughter, a walk into town. But even with that side of my family, I had to talk about medications, treatment plans and doctors. And since I'm a bit more removed from my dad and stepmom's family, their issues don't affect me as deeply...which then lead to other issues! Jeez Louise!
I wasn't planning on it, but I may take some time from this leave and go on a true vacation. I need to get out of my own head...this is getting ridiculous.
I was reading other people's blogs about their Thanksgiving and I felt so envious. They seemed to be filled with so little drama.
All I know is that no matter what, I'm going to spend the next holiday season with people who make me laugh, with whom I can relax, who feel relaxed around me. No angst...even if it kills me! :-)