Yup...just as I suspected. It's over before it's begun. I've gotten confirmation that I am "one of the most amazing people [he's] met in this life," but I don't think he's feeling it the way I am.
You know what the suckiest part is? He reminds me that I am creating this vicious cycle just by being who he is. We spoke this weekend about one's environment being a reflection of your inner self, as well as the connectedness of all things. Not in a "blame the victim" way, but in a "you control your environment" way. I know it's the truth...I've got this cynicism and doubt about my love life, all this fear that Ex has ruined me for love, so the result is my environment keeps proving me right.
And now I can't tell anymore if I really like him or I just liked the idea that a man so amazing could have been into me.
I'm just going to go to bed and start over tomorrow. My goal is to still feel good about this weekend, though the outcome may not be exactly what I had become attached to.