Saturday, October 07, 2006

My Ode to The Rover

This post is being written at an airport terminal, where many of The Rover's brilliant musings have been created. My flight has been delayed over an hour because they are waiting for the flight crew. It's my own fault because I am flying Delta. I know, I know...tuckergurl warned us all that Delta sucks, but it was the cheapest flight by far. I guess you get what you pay for.

Where am I go, you ask? I'm going to Buffalo. Be careful what you wish for is the lesson here. If you recall, the amazing man with whom I spent a weekend lives in Buffalo. At the time, all I wanted was for him to invite me to visit him so we could see each other again. Well, he did. Of course, it was after the pedestal upon which I had placed him crumbled and I actually got a good look at him.

There is absolutely no ill will. I actually feel fortunate that it all went down the way it did. I learned a lot about where I'm at spiritually and I came to a wonderful realization about how I view men.

For as long I can remember, men have always been my saviors or my destroyers. It's a position I put them in...any guy I meet is either the second coming here to change my life or the epitome of evil who wants nothing more than to annihilate me. Granted, I have been in relationships with very damaged men, however, I can't really remember a guy just being a guy trying to figure shit out like me. This pattern of behavior came into stark relief during my encounter with The Man from Buffalo. Once I learned that about myself, everything became so clear and I became so calm. My encounters with TMFB lost all sense of desperation as I started to see the situation in its entirety and see him for who he is. We did have a wonderful connection that weekend; he is still extremely good-looking in my eyes. He is a good person; he is still a little too pompous for my taste. But I can honestly say, it's all good.

I guess my interactions with him via email and the phone reflected this shift because he did indeed invite me to come visit him in Buffalo for a weekend of fall festivals, pumpkin carving and football watching. I'm looking forward to getting out of the city and seeing foliage uninterrupted by buildings.

Note: This trip was sponsored by Michael Bloomberg, who has instituted the $400 tax rebate for all homeowners in the city for the third year in a row. Thanks, Mike!

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